“Our sensitivity is like a radar system that sends and receives thoughts and feelings. That sensitivity can work for or against us, depending on how relaxed and discerning we are. Ever walk into a room and suddenly get a headache?  It is important that I always know ‘what is me’ and ‘what is not me.’ Otherwise, I end up minding somebody else’s business!”

 

First impressions can be a hunch, a dream, a vision, an idea, a feeling. I had them all the time as a child. Being a very sensitive, intuitive soul was very challenging. I was physically ill a lot, in part because I was stressed out by my relationships in my family.

 

I tried to detach from my intuitive self as I moved into my teens when the world became too overwhelming. I never forgot the intuitive experiences I had as a kid.  It took some life and death experiences to start paying attention again.  I began a search to find answers.

 

I found a copy of my astrology chart and report that my Aunt Jean had ordered from her NYC astrologer.  That report gave me my first understanding that I was unique, an “old soul” with very strong “psychic” abilities. That I had a strong tendency to experience illness when upset.  That I was meant to help others as I helped myself. Those messages gave me hope and urged to continue my search through the ups and downs of my twenties.

 

I didn’t understand how to deal with all the thoughts, feelings and impressions I continued to tune into every day.  I would walk on one side of the street if I saw a person walking towards me with a dark cloud over their head.  When I suddenly felt nervous and unsure, and started to break out into hives, I thought I was not normal.  As I explored further, I realized that I was sensing the energies around me. If what I was feeling wasn’t mine to begin with, perhaps I could learn to heal myself.  I wanted to develop those intuitive gifts as an adult, and return to the deep, fulfilling connection with my intuitive soul self that I had as a child.

 

One evening, while living in NYC and working several jobs, I had a strong urge to turn on the radio show at 12 midnight.  Instead of music, I tuned into a Late Night Talk show with host Casper Citron (not making up that name).  The only thing I heard was “And everyone is psychic.”  – part of an interview with a team representing the Inner Peace Movement.  I listened and found out they were giving a lecture the next evening on “Being Psychic Is Natural.” The site was only a few blocks away from my apartment.  I rearranged my schedule and priorities and attended. That led to a Thursday night lecture, a Friday night workshop, a personal consultation, a weekend retreat, and my first 12 weeks in community group sessions…all available in my Manhattan neighborhood.

 

Old excuses didn’t have a chance.  My feeling connection to the energy of the program and the presenters was so positive and strong that I didn’t want to resist. I wanted to find solutions to ACT on the direction available to me. I began to notice how many chills I was having and the strong inner core of guidance that I was feeling. Plus I had some new tools to stay more connected to that guidance.

 

At times, I had wanted to give up. I had lost trust in myself.  My sensitivity often felt overwhelming.  I have had recurring bouts of illness and challenging life experiences. But I have profound help in releasing the past, and reinventing myself with inner peace, purpose and the passion to be of service and help others on my path.

 

Now I train others to be “their own best intuitive,” using their gifts in whatever way is for their highest good.   I am still awed by the continued empowering impact of inner guidance in my life and the opportunities to help others find their own answers. I have found a fulfilling pathway of service that I had an inkling of in my teens.